Life Update Vol. 3

 

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Hello! Are you still reading blogs from Blogspot? 

whining about things part 1

i don't think i'm ever done whining about unfortunate things happening in my life. a friend told me there's so much to whine about more than not being able to place an order without sending the order form at zzzz store's instagram page. 

i stopped using instagram 5 months ago and i'm happy with the peace it brought to me. 

First Love hehehe

I don't remember quiet well who was my first love but I can remember who gave me what a first love feels like. I read somewhere that you always come back to your first love but in this case, I tell you it's the latter. The man I haven't heard from the past two months. I keep tracing back the days last year of what we were doing, perhaps when the days and nights were quiet hard to deal with but I kept trying to love his demons (he did loved mine too, he said) and later before Odette hit us, I was convinced that I indeed love him. I never loved someone to the point of forcing myself to understand him even more because, what's there to lose? We only wanted friendship, but deep love developed later on. 

The first love where I learned love is a choice and not for a day. 

Life Update Vol. Whatever (Sort Of)

Hey, I changed my blog theme! I would like to thank Gabriela Melo of Lovelogic for providing the latest update of this theme. She has been helpful with my questions plus her themes are aesthetic and good for any types of blog. :)

Recently, I've been thinking of the life decisions I made. For the past few years, I kept reminding myself of what's gonna happen in the future, so I have to weigh down my decisions at that time. But in between those years, I also lived this YOLO motto so if I know or feel I have that moment, I go for it. I was happy but the regret is still there. Was I really happy? No, because the regret was there too. (Labo mo 'te!)

On the other hand, I started cutting off people I feel I no longer grow with. Online and in-person friendships, I abruptly cut connections with them. I know it is not okay to abruptly cut ties and I know the feeling of it but I still did. I felt bad and immature at the same time. I thought my feelings and intuition were right. Do I owe them an explanation? No. And for sure they don't need my explanation too.