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The pandemic is still going on and I'm not sure how to pull this up. School took out the 'no outright failure policy' meaning if I fail one more subject this semester then I'm out of USC Law. That thought alone scare the hell out of me and the more I think about it, the more I feel bad at myself for being not so good, for being below average all the time. This semester, I'm enrolled to a block section I don't have support system with and that's batshit crazy though my buddies and I have the same professors it does not work. The enrollment procedure is so messed up I hated everyone in that department. Honestly, I don't like this block. The universe has been testing my patience and perhaps challenging me; to add up, I no longer have the motivation to work at night. I hate it and I wish it's easy to find a job that's understanding and easy for my class schedule. I kept searching job sites and I get nothing. I thought it's worse when I was working at my previous company, but this one's even worst. UPDATE: my block got changed and I'm extremely grateful to our new dean for understanding my situation and FINALLY realizing my schedule which is conflict with Credit Transactions and Criminal Law 2.
I hate to say that I'm getting confused of this guy I am tweeting and posting about with three initials (yes, r.a.a.) and though I understood the boundaries between us, it's really different. When you're 18 and you think he's the best person in the world, so perfect but then at 23, you realize it's not. It's far from what you have pictured before and thought of more than that. People change. Even the person you thought will not. But, I still love this person no matter what.
Mom and I were talking about my brother's behavior, I mean, he's in the phase where he explores himself and come out of his own but looking through this it's waaay different than my time before. Yeah, we've all gone through the rebellious phase but not talking to your mom for months? I don't think I could do that nor leave the house and sleep somewhere else. On that note, Mom reminded me that we deal things differently. Right. Maybe I am just too judgy of my brother but hey, I just want the best for him. I always worry for my two brothers and think nothing but for them in the future. I have to work hard. My Mom actually think I'm acting like a mom.
And while I'm trying to get away with the stress that's coming in the next few days and months...
It was just random of me to put the tv on and hit Netflix button on the TV control because I want to try watching again after abandoning FRIENDS. Believe me when I said I wasn't able to get sleep because I was so hooked in it. Find Me In Your Memory is worth it!
Okay, I didn't expect myself to be so hooked up also in to Keeping Up With The Kardashians on Netflix because a) i think they're just like any other families and b) just way richer and ~spoiled~ than us. I enjoyed watching the series and just hoped there would be more.
I tried also this chicken recipe last Sunday. Too bad I wasn't able to take a picture of that but it turned well. I'm sharing the link here.
Law school stuff is so expensive. Books are way too heavy for me let alone the print outs needed (because I can't study on a gadget ~i have this bad learning retention~) and needs everything to be printed out well, except for cases. I still have a lot of hard working to do.
I went alone to a samgyupsal place and honestly, the feeling isn't the same anymore. I tried to eat more meat but I couldn't, so I stopped. I only had one round. Where's my hungry stomach?! Well, I'm getting fatter. Much different from 2020.
Despite these...
I still have all the time to make bawi and work my ass off because I know I can do it. I know what I want in life and that's to get the Atty before my name three to five years from now. My family is supportive and provided everything they can. And extremely grateful with the people I call friends. #blessing.
And focus on the present.
I wish 2021 will be good to everyone because honestly I can no longer take having the feeling like mercury retrograde is there ruining everyone.
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